
Lucy is 8 weeks old today and I have been thinking of her birth...
It’s true that words fail sometimes. There simply is no way to describe the very primal sensation that occurs the moment your body gives up what it has been carrying and you deliver a new life. It’s this intense euphoric release. Just as you are nearing a physical precipice of pain, this child pushes out and leaves a rushing wake of emptiness behind. There is an immediate gasp as you reorient and breathe in what emptiness feels like again. Mentally you call yourself back from the haze of labor and are able to rest in the blissful reality that your labor has ceased – you have crossed the finish line and survived.
When Lucy was born, Christy, our midwife, had to work fast because the umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck 3 times; but thankfully she was fine and within moments she was handed to me. I remember looking down at this squalling creature resting on my chest and as I looked at my daughter for the first time, I was flooded with gratitude and my heart suddenly expanded with a new love, forever unique to this child.
As I have thought back on my experience, I am thankful that I was able to experience a drug-free delivery. We anesthetize ourselves to so much in our society. We try to minimize pain as much as possible – physically, emotionally, and spiritually. But going through labor, experiencing pain and living in that space for the time that it lasted, made me realize that I can survive. I can live in it and I can survive and it’s okay. Not only so, but sometimes all of that pain is necessary for new life and beauty to emerge.
These past 8 weeks have held so many different things for us as a family. The joy of a newborn; the sheer exhaustion and sometimes loneliness that come from caring for a newborn; the worry, sadness, doubt and resolution that go along with making big decisions; the demands of parenting a now very needy almost-4 year old; the fun of now being a family of 4; and the list goes on and on. During this season I am learning to rely on grace and I’m ever so thankful that its supplier has a limitless reserve. I am also learning that it’s okay to live in the space of each emotion. I can soak in the joy and the happiness, and I don’t have to immediately run from the unpleasant times. I can embrace all that this season has to offer, for better or worse. And if I live in this space with an ear to the whisperings of the Spirit, I am confident God will use this time, all of this time, to adorn my faith with new life and depth and dimension.
He insisted on showing me something "really awesome" the other day. Before I knew it, he climbed on his bike and did this number. Because I was actually a bit impressed with his acrobatics, I took a picture with my iphone before counseling him on the dangers of such a pose.
(and yes, that's where Lucy ends up every morning around 5am - right between Brad and I. The little miss has a penchant for waking up then and nothing satisfies her except snuggling up right next to me...)
Meeting her big brother for the first time.
He has been so excited. I overheard him singing a song he made up about her last night after we put him to bed. "...I'm a big brother and Lucy is my sister..."
Enjoying some time on the porch with the cooler fall weather.
This one is for you, Amy. Having a girl makes you do things you never would have done with your boy!


Since the house backed up into a wooded area, we had a persistent visitor that made the night that much more entertaining. Seeing Adrianna run after him throwing sticks was quite the scene. He just didn't want to give up and kept sneaking back!
Lately I have been wanting to pack in as much friend time as possible, knowing that the next few months will be spent more confined to home. A long dinner with friends in such a dreamy setting was a perfect night and I am so thankful that God gives us friends to share the different seasons of life with. I loved all the gifts for the baby but I also loved the gift of getting to spend time with people that I hold so high.
My mom made the crib skirt and I love it when things turn out just the way you pictured them in your head.
I will go and pick him up tomorrow and I can't wait!

When running low on ways to pass the time in the country, simply fill up spray bottles with water and let the kids torment spiders and bugs - it makes for lots of excitement!
This was one of my favorite parts of cousin camp - each kid had their own poster board to paint and there was also a sheet they could all paint. We had spray bottles filled with different colors and lots of different brushes to use.